And I am the happiest person on earth today. 17-06-2012.

Today I succeed to conquer my own ego, even though I defend it awhile before, but in the end I am able to put it aside. And after some thinking, I'm glad I choose the right thing to do, because, again, I almost ruin something valuable to me because of my ego. I'm learning, that's why I still need to try harder. Aku tidak mau ego ku ini kembali menghancurkanku, "merusak" hal-hal di sekitarku, dan terutama, saat ini, di sekitar kita. Aku ingin yang terbaik untuk kita semua, untuk kita. Thanks for helping me to understand, thanks for making me a better man. Nite... Sweet dream. Let's meet again tomorrow and fill our day with happiness. =)

This song keep repeating in my head recently for no reason. Maybe it leaves a deep impression in my soul for a long long time now. But sad, I can't sing it right now because of this heavy cough. =(

Biar Menjadi Kenangan
by: Reza & Masaki Ueda

Tetes air mataku tak tertahan lagi
Menanti kepastian tentang kita
Kau masih juga bersamanya, masih mencintainya

Maafkanlah sayangku atas keadaan
Kamu tak pernah jadi kekasihku
Wajahnya selalu terbayang, saat kau di sisiku

Reff:
Aku dan kamu takkan takkan tahu
Mengapa kita tak berpisah
Walau kita takkan pernah satu
Biarlah aku menyimpan bayangmu
Dan biarkanlah semua menjadi kenangan
Yang terlukis di dalam hatiku
Meskipun perih, namun tetap slalu ada di sini

Ku beri segalanya semampunya aku
Meski cinta harus terbagi dua
Mungkin kamu tak pernah tahu, betapa sakitnya aku

back to Reff

Oh pasti kamu tak pernah tahu, betapa sakitnya aku~

Still reminds me of you...

It's A Compliment

I just knew from before that you are caring and nice. It's just too bad that we are not together.

William Shakespeare's
Romeo and Juliet

Romeo: Under love's heavy burden do I sink.

Romeo while holding Juliet's hand: If I profane with my unworthiest hand this holy shrine, then gentle sin is this?

Juliet after know that Romeo is a Montague: My only love sprung from my only hate. Too early seen unknown and known too late. Prodigious birth of love it is to me that I must love a loathed enemy.

Juliet: Romeo~ O Romeo~ Wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father name and refuse thy name, or if thou will not, be but sworn my love and I'll no longer be a Capulet. 'Tis but thy name that is my enemy thou art thyself, though not a Montague. What's a Montague? It's not hand, nor foot, nor arm, nor face, nor any other part belonging to a man. O be some other name. What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other word would smell as sweet. So Romeo would, were he not Romeo called, retain that dear perfection which he owes without that title.

Romeo: With love's light wings did I o'erperch these walls, for stony limits cannot hold love out and what love can do.

Juliet: O gentle Romeo, if thou dost love, pronounce it faithfully.
Romeo: Lady, by yonder blessed moon I vow that tips with silver all these fruit tree tops.
Juliet: O swear not by the moon, the inconstant moon that monthly changes in her circled orb. Lest that thy love prove likewise variable.

Juliet: Parting is such sweet sorrow that I shall say good night till it be morrow.

Nurse: Can you not see that I am out of breath?
Juliet: How art thou out of breath when thou hast breath to say to me that thou art out of breath?

Juliet: Come gentle night. Come, loving, black-browed night. Give me my Romeo and when I shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with night and pay no worship to the garish sun.

Lighters (ft. Bruno Mars)

by: Bad Meets Evil

[Bruno Mars part]
This one's for you and me,
living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
with my arms out wide, I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters

Actually the whole part of the song have a good meaning, but it's a little "inappropriate". This song tells, about how we ever in the lowest time of our life holding on to our dream of becoming big. But we keep on struggling with our beliefs and dreams that someday we can reach up high. I dedicate this song mainly for "Iruma", the now opening for two weeks, Dance and Drawing studio and it's owner. Although it's hard at the moment, I believe it will become big one day, because you put your dreams and your heart in it.

Have you heard? Dreams that I have when I was young? Something that I want to achieve from what I do for work later? I want the result of my work could be seen anywhere, in the public. Not so I can boast about (but I did), but I can see people see it, and with their look or their words saying "it's a nice thing we got here". And you just gave me the pleasure of it on my secondary-job already by publish it, even though I remain anonymous. But I still feel happy. =)

A Thousand Years
by: Christina Perri

Heart beats fast colors and promises. How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.
One step closer.

Reff:
I have died everyday waiting for you.
Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years.
I'll love you for a thousand more.

Time stands still, beauty I know she is.
I will be brave.
I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me.
Every breath, every hour has come to this.
One step closer.

Reff

Reff2:
And all along I believed I would find you.
Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a Thousand years.
I'll love you for a Thousand more.

One step closer.
One step closer.

Reff, Reff2