And I am the happiest person on earth today. 17-06-2012.

Today I succeed to conquer my own ego, even though I defend it awhile before, but in the end I am able to put it aside. And after some thinking, I'm glad I choose the right thing to do, because, again, I almost ruin something valuable to me because of my ego. I'm learning, that's why I still need to try harder. Aku tidak mau ego ku ini kembali menghancurkanku, "merusak" hal-hal di sekitarku, dan terutama, saat ini, di sekitar kita. Aku ingin yang terbaik untuk kita semua, untuk kita. Thanks for helping me to understand, thanks for making me a better man. Nite... Sweet dream. Let's meet again tomorrow and fill our day with happiness. =)

This song keep repeating in my head recently for no reason. Maybe it leaves a deep impression in my soul for a long long time now. But sad, I can't sing it right now because of this heavy cough. =(

Biar Menjadi Kenangan
by: Reza & Masaki Ueda

Tetes air mataku tak tertahan lagi
Menanti kepastian tentang kita
Kau masih juga bersamanya, masih mencintainya

Maafkanlah sayangku atas keadaan
Kamu tak pernah jadi kekasihku
Wajahnya selalu terbayang, saat kau di sisiku

Reff:
Aku dan kamu takkan takkan tahu
Mengapa kita tak berpisah
Walau kita takkan pernah satu
Biarlah aku menyimpan bayangmu
Dan biarkanlah semua menjadi kenangan
Yang terlukis di dalam hatiku
Meskipun perih, namun tetap slalu ada di sini

Ku beri segalanya semampunya aku
Meski cinta harus terbagi dua
Mungkin kamu tak pernah tahu, betapa sakitnya aku

back to Reff

Oh pasti kamu tak pernah tahu, betapa sakitnya aku~

Still reminds me of you...

It's A Compliment

I just knew from before that you are caring and nice. It's just too bad that we are not together.

William Shakespeare's
Romeo and Juliet

Romeo: Under love's heavy burden do I sink.

Romeo while holding Juliet's hand: If I profane with my unworthiest hand this holy shrine, then gentle sin is this?

Juliet after know that Romeo is a Montague: My only love sprung from my only hate. Too early seen unknown and known too late. Prodigious birth of love it is to me that I must love a loathed enemy.

Juliet: Romeo~ O Romeo~ Wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father name and refuse thy name, or if thou will not, be but sworn my love and I'll no longer be a Capulet. 'Tis but thy name that is my enemy thou art thyself, though not a Montague. What's a Montague? It's not hand, nor foot, nor arm, nor face, nor any other part belonging to a man. O be some other name. What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other word would smell as sweet. So Romeo would, were he not Romeo called, retain that dear perfection which he owes without that title.

Romeo: With love's light wings did I o'erperch these walls, for stony limits cannot hold love out and what love can do.

Juliet: O gentle Romeo, if thou dost love, pronounce it faithfully.
Romeo: Lady, by yonder blessed moon I vow that tips with silver all these fruit tree tops.
Juliet: O swear not by the moon, the inconstant moon that monthly changes in her circled orb. Lest that thy love prove likewise variable.

Juliet: Parting is such sweet sorrow that I shall say good night till it be morrow.

Nurse: Can you not see that I am out of breath?
Juliet: How art thou out of breath when thou hast breath to say to me that thou art out of breath?

Juliet: Come gentle night. Come, loving, black-browed night. Give me my Romeo and when I shall die, take him and cut him out in little stars and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with night and pay no worship to the garish sun.

Lighters (ft. Bruno Mars)

by: Bad Meets Evil

[Bruno Mars part]
This one's for you and me,
living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
with my arms out wide, I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters

Actually the whole part of the song have a good meaning, but it's a little "inappropriate". This song tells, about how we ever in the lowest time of our life holding on to our dream of becoming big. But we keep on struggling with our beliefs and dreams that someday we can reach up high. I dedicate this song mainly for "Iruma", the now opening for two weeks, Dance and Drawing studio and it's owner. Although it's hard at the moment, I believe it will become big one day, because you put your dreams and your heart in it.

Have you heard? Dreams that I have when I was young? Something that I want to achieve from what I do for work later? I want the result of my work could be seen anywhere, in the public. Not so I can boast about (but I did), but I can see people see it, and with their look or their words saying "it's a nice thing we got here". And you just gave me the pleasure of it on my secondary-job already by publish it, even though I remain anonymous. But I still feel happy. =)

A Thousand Years
by: Christina Perri

Heart beats fast colors and promises. How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.
One step closer.

Reff:
I have died everyday waiting for you.
Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years.
I'll love you for a thousand more.

Time stands still, beauty I know she is.
I will be brave.
I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me.
Every breath, every hour has come to this.
One step closer.

Reff

Reff2:
And all along I believed I would find you.
Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a Thousand years.
I'll love you for a Thousand more.

One step closer.
One step closer.

Reff, Reff2

Just got stuck on one of the annual kid's Christmas event...

SANTA CLAUS!!! And yeah... this is new to me because this year it is I who become the santa... Met some kids that I know when I'm giving out the gifts... Those who are older can recognize me... Some other were not... and it's including Ryan and Rayland...

Other thing is... I would like to congratulate Ci Hsienny and Ko Deddy for their FIRST newly born baby girl (yayyyy...), because they previously only have two boys... so this the first time for them... Hope she would grow into a beautiful and smart one because both her brothers do show the prospect =D

This is again that time of the year... For Christmas... and for Christmas Choir Competition (CPCCC).

Last year I cannot join the competition as I have another event to attend and we (S&V Choir) didn't make it to the final round as we only got the 11th position (only 10 choir may advance to the final round) after singing the "Best Time of The Year" and "Jingle Bell Rocks". But I managed to join this year.

The preparation was harsh this year, we finalize our decision to participate when the competition itself about to be held in another 2 weeks. Also, our instructor cannot join the rehearsal in the first week at all so we have to learn the competition material by our self, including the "Silent Night" composed by Bandung Choral Society as mandatory song for the final round (which is soooo hard).

We did 4 times rehearsal each week. On the first week, we try to learn and getting to know the song generally, not including the breathing and dynamics of the song. At the start of 2nd week, our instructor Mr. Bernadus joined the rehearsal and listening to the result of our preparation so far and so we decided the song we will perform (one of the song was about to be exchanged) that is "Christmas Lullaby" by John Rutter and "Praise Him (A King is Born)" written by Sy Goraieb, Tim Hosman, while neglecting the mandatory song practice (let's focus on getting through the final round first!). We practiced the songs, memorized the tunes, the lyrics, the breathing techniques, and also the choreography.

At last, the day of the competition. We assemble at 12, do warming ups, and do the final check. After performing at about 4 p.m. I had to go home earlier because there's another event I had to attend and I got the news that, we are through to the final round!!! (9th from 12 participant which is the bottom rank to get through to the final), which mean we had to rehearse for the mandatory song. So we rendezvous at Ingrid's house and start rehearsing until midnight.

On the day of final round, we had to assemble sooner than yesterday because it also start earlier. We had lunch at Solaria, change into our costume, and, as usual, do the warming up and the final check. This time we also brought our fold for the "Silent Night" part (no way we can memorized it in a night isn't it?).

While waiting for the announcement, the MURI (Indonesian Record Breaking committee) event is held for the category of "Most participant on singing human Christmas tree".

At last, the winner is announced in the evening. We got rank 7 of 9 finalist, which is something we are so proud of, because we are improving overnight (while 1st rank on the first day got 4th rank, and the 2nd rank on the first day got 8th rank!!).

Courtesy of: Dhisa

ku merasa saat kau datang kembali
meski aku mencoba bertahan dan hindari
oh mengapa kau datang mengganggu lagi
di saat kau tak mungkin berada di sisiku

If only... I could ease away your pain and misery... and I'm willing to...
never mind then... it was all in the past... it's not my problem anymore...
or is it...?

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Actually... there's nothing changed between us... hanya saja... tidak ada lagi cinta... if that's what it was...

Inside Your Heaven

by: Carrie Underwood

I've been down, now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation comin' around
Guess its right, it's so amazing
Every time I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got, you lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows you away
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars line up the wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows you away
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin' you until the day I die

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows you away

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows you away

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows you away
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

A requited love...
It should be real... it should be good... while it should warm the inside...
But most of all... It's built to last...
But where were you... when everything is falling apart...
Why you have to wait to find me..?


Built To Last
by: Melee

I've looked for love in stranger places
But never found someone like you
Someone whose smile Makes me feel I've been holding back
And now there's nothing I can do

Reff:
'Cause this is real and this is good
It warms the inside just like it should
Most of all, most of all
It's built to last

All of our friends saw from the start
So why didn't we believe it too?
Oh yeah, now look where we are
You're in my heart now
And there's no escaping it for you

Back to Reff

Bridge:
Walking on the hills at night
With those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

Back to Reff

'Cause you are the sun in my universe
Consider the best when we felt the worst
And most of all, most of all, most of all
Most of all, most of all, most of all
It's built to last.


You Found Me
by: The Fray

I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?" He said, "Ask anything"

Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad

Reff:
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me

But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Back to Reff

The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve taking all I want!

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, where were you? Where were you?

Back to Reff

Why'd you have to wait to find me, to find me?

It's the hardest thing I'll ever had to do.
To turn around and walk away.
Pretending I don't love you.

9th of November 2011, 7:50 AM

Resolution have been made early this month, but how can it be done? Almost every single night I got a dream about you. A sign?

04-09-2011
01:32 AM

two weeks already... 14 days of it...
I don't know anymore what is good or bad...
I now from before that what I did you won't even care much...
All this will only hurt me alone and not you...
Then I "see" you full of smiling like there's no one is pouting because of you...
But that's good... really good and I mean it...
I don't really want to see you having hard times because of what I did...
Well, in fact, I still hoping for any possibilities even at this second...
I think myself, about the Chemistry I made myself...
Love tested with Envy will show how pure the love is. But,
Lust tested with Envy will show you anger, and how it is not love, because you can't accept that they are not yours...

And now, I can only hope, that we can be together... sooner or later... because I still think we are good together...

I've dream a lot when I can sing the song for us "Looks like we made it, look how far we've come my baby. Though we took the long way, we know we'll get there someday. They said "I bet they'll never make it", but just look at the stories now. We still together, still going strong..."
When can I present that song for you...? When we can laugh together, telling the stories about us in the past, and be happy of what we have achieve together. Yes, together.

Well... good nite now... hope you have a really really great time with your holiday... Don't know if I can see you soon. Can I still be happy to see you and if you can be happy to see me... But I do hope I can... because I still have it in me...

Smile... =)

= Sherwin =

1st of September 2011. 01:00 AM

It was official... It was decided...
But I still can't seem to fully understand the word "moving on..."
A friend said "forget her..."
Another said "Moving on is like bitter vegetable, it tastes bad but it's good for you".
But again... In this very morning... I "saw" you... with the way you "look" at me... but with the other... and I can help but envy...

How can I forget someone whose been too valuable? I guess lesson won't make you smarter when you cannot accept it as your own... The good thing about moving on won't be reach when you refuse to do so...

Help...

Telling The World

by: Taio Cruz


Verse:

Every part of my heart I'm givin' out
Every song on my lips I'm singin' out
Every fear in my soul I'm lettin' go
Anyone who ask I'll let them know
She's the one, she's the one I say it loud
She's the one, she's the one I say it proud
Ring a bell, ring a bell for the whole crowd
Ring a bell, ring a bell


Reff 1:

I'm tellin' the world... That I found a girl...
The one I can live for... The one who deserve


Back to Verse


Reff 2:

I'm tellin' the world... That I found a girl...
The one I can live for... The one who deserve
To give all the light... A reason to fly...
The one I can live for... A reason for life...


Bridge:

Hoeo Hoeo~ Eya Eyay~ (3x)
Hoeo Hoeo~


Back to Reff 2


Eya Eyay~

Alasanku

(Inspired by: The Hoobastank)

Aku... bukan manusia sempurna... Terlihat dari kesalahan-kesalahan yang telah kuperbuat.

Tapi... aku belajar... untuk tidak sembarangan berbicara... bertindak... bertingkah laku.

Sungguh... aku tidak sengaja melakukan itu semua untuk menyakitimu...

Perasaan bersalah itu terus kurasakan setiap hari hingga saat ini...

Maafkan aku...

Maafkan aku yang telah membuat kau harus menghadapi semua kesakitan itu...

Aku berharap aku dapat memperbaiki semuanya dan menghilangkan rasa sakitmu...

Dan kembali menjadi seseorang yang dapat menghentikan tangis sedihmu...

Oleh karena itu aku ingin kau mengetahui ini...

Aku menemukan suatu alasan untukku... untuk berubah dari siapa diriku sebelumnya...

Suatu alasan untuk memulai dari awal lagi...

Dan alasanku itu adalah kamu...

To see you when I wake up is a gift... but for now, I'm happy that we can exchange our good nites...


I Miss You

by: Incubus

To see you when I wake up... is a gift... I didn't... think could be real...
To know that you feel the same... as I do... is a three-fold utopian dream...
You do something to me... that I can't explain...
So would I be out of line... if I say... I miss you.......

See your picture I smell your skin on... the empty pillow... next to mine...
You had only been gone ten days... but already I'm wasting away...
I know I'll see you again... Whether far... or soon...
But I need you to know... that I care... and I miss you........

Bohong sebetulnya kalau aku mengiyakan bahwa perasaan ini tinggal sisa saja...
Karena sesungguhnya masih cukup utuh, bahkan lebih kuat dari sebelumnya...
Tapi apa mau dikata kalau bukan itu yang dapat terjadi diantara kita...
Namun, aku bingung, aku penasaran, kenapa kesempatan itu tidak ada untukku...?
Ataukah ada hal lain selain alasan yang tak pernah bisa kuterima itu...?
"Aku hanya menganggap engkau sebagai teman"
Aku ingin tahu, aku perlu tahu... bolehkah...?


Apa Salahku
by: D'Masiv

D A/C# Bm A
apa salahku kau buat begini

G D/F# Em A
kau tarik ulur hatiku hingga sakit yang kurasa

D A/C# Bm A
apa memang ini yang kamu inginkan

G D/F# Em A
tak ada sedikitpun niat tuk serius kepadaku

G F#m
katakan yang sebenarnya

Em A
jangan mau tak mau seperti ini


Reff:

G F#m
akhirnya kini aku mengerti

Em A D D7
apa yang ada di pikiranmu slama ini

G F#m B
kau hanya ingin permainkan perasaanku

Em A
tak ada hati tak ada cinta

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's allright because I like the way it hurt.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, but that's allright.

8th of September 2010 3:13 PM

Watery eyes after telling all the story all over again. But I cannot, my time and my feeling already exchanged with money at this office hour. Need an empty space an a little unlimited time to help me cry.

Dunia Baru ( A Whole New World)

Kudapat perlihatkan "dunia" kepadamu
Cerah, berkilau, memukau
Katakan padaku "putri" kapan terakhir kau membiarkan hatimu memutuskan

Kudapat membuka matamu
Membawa keajaiban demi keajaiban kepadamu
Diatas, disamping, dan di bawahnya
Dengan permadani ajaib

Dunia baru...
Sebuah citra baru yang fantastis
Tak ada yang melarang, atau mengarahkan
Atau mengatakan kita hanya bermimpi

Dunia baru...
Tempat mempesona yang tak kukenal
Kini di atas sini
Sangat jelas bahwa ku berada di dunia yang baru denganmu

Pemandangan yang luar biasa
Perasaan yang tak tergambarkan
Membumbung, jatuh, bergerak bebas
Melalui langit yang tak bertepi

Dunia baru... (jangan tutup matamu...)
Ratusan hal dapat kulihat (tahan nafasmu... akan semakin membaik)
Ku bagai bintang jatuh... Ku t'lah pergi jauh
Ku tak dapat kembali, kemana aku berasal

Dunia baru... (tiap peralihan mengejutkan)
Dengan cakrawala baru untuk dikejar (setiap saat berarti)

Kukejar kemanapun... Kupunya waktu untuk itu
Biar kubagikan dunia baru ini denganmu...

Dunia baru... Disitulah kita kan berada..
Perburuan yang menggetarkan
Tempat yang penuh keajaiaban...
Untuk kau dan aku...

Hello Beautiful
by: Jonas Brothers

Hello Beautiful
How's it going?
I hear it's wonderful in California
I've been missing you its true
But tonight I'm gonna fly
Yea tonight I'm gonna fly
'cause I could comb across the world
See everything and never be satisfied
If I couldn't see those eyes

Hello Beautiful
It's been a long time
Since my phone's rung
And you've been on that line
I've been missing you it's true
But tonight I'm gonna fly
Yea tonight I'm gonna fly
'cause I could comb across the world
See everything and never be satisfied
If I couldn't see those eyes

First of all, sorry for all the readers (if there's any), I decided to make this blog a little private. Because I need some privacy here now that my FB and Twitter getting a little too public. Sorry for the trouble.


Sukiyaki
by: 4 PM


It's all because of you, I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away, now my life is just a rainy day
And I love you so, how much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely

Untouchable memories, seem to keep haunting me
Another love so true
That once turned all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared
Now my eyes are filled with tears
And I'm wishing you were here with me

Soft with love are my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone
I just don't know what to do

(Chorus)
If only you were here
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine once again
You'd be mine all mine
But in reality, you and I will never be
'Cause you took your love away from me

Girl, I don't know what I did
To make you leave me
But what I do know
Is that since you've been gone
There's such an emptiness inside
I'm wishing you'd come back to me

(repeat Chorus)

Oh, baby, you took your love away from me

Memilih itu terkadang memang tidak menyenangkan. Tetapi dibanding-bandingkan dengan orang lain itu tidak pernah menyenangkan, entah itu dibandingkan untuk menang maupun dibandingkan untuk kalah. Mungkin memang kita harus berjalan perlahan, dan ya, kita tengah berjalan perlahan, bahkan perjalanan ini belum terlihat tujuannya, tapi kita, dan mungkin terutama aku, percaya, bahwa pada akhirnya "Waktu yang akan menjawab" apapun itu jawabannya.

=)

How can I stand it, when I miss you so much everyday but you miss someone else so bad every time?

apapun yang MEREKA katakan tentang AKU dan KAMU
itu semua tidak berguna selama AKU dan KAMU tidak menjadi KITA di hatiMU

Lagu Rindu(ku)

Bintang malam katakan padanya...
aku ingin melukis sinarmu.. di hatinya...
Embun pagi katakan padanya...
biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya...

Bintang malam sampaikan padanya...
aku ingin melukis sinarmu.. di hatinya...
Embun pagi katakan padanya...
biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya...

Tahukah engkau wahai langit....?
Aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya...
Kan kupasang hiasan... angkasa yang terindah...
Hanya untuk.. dirinya....

Lagu rindu... ini ku(nyanyi)kan...
Hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta...
Walau hanya... nada sederhana...
Ijinkan kuungkap segenap rasa... dan kerinduan...

9th of December 2009
OMK MKK Choir on Plaza Blok M Choir Competition 2009

Kasih (Cipt: Putut, Arr: Natalis, Mei", Mitra)
Medley: Carol Of The Bells, Jinggle Bells, We Wish You A Merry Christmas

Sunday, 6 December 2009
16:30

St. Sabas Choir Regular Service

Pembukaan: O Datanglah Immanuel (PS. 442)
Ordinarium: Kyrie, Sanctus, Agnus Dei (Masa Adven)
Persembahan: Bapa Di Surga Trimalah (PS. 379)
Bapa Kami: Putut
Komuni: Known To You
Penutup: Putri Sion, Nyanyilah (PS. 448)

Argo & Dewi Wedding 28-11-2009
The Wedding
Kasih
Namaku Disebut
Bapa Kami
Berkatilah (Pandu & Putri)
Tak Sebebas Merpati (Mitra & Pandu)

Yohan & Melani Wedding 29-11-2009
Wonderful Day
Kasih
Give Thanks
Namaku Disebut
Bapa Kami (Totok)
The Prayer (Kak Nadus & Mei2)
Ave Maria (Ditta)
Lucky (Delvin & Bianda)
From This Moment

OMK MKK Choir Rehearsal 29-11-2009

Kasih (cipt. Putut, Arr: Natalis, Mei2, Mitra)
Carol Of The Bells

Sabas rehearsal 18-11-2009

Give Thanks
From This Moment
The Prayer
Lucky

The start of my singing blog...

14th of November 2009

Went karaoke, below is songs I sing (which I remember though)

Taylor Swift - Love Story
Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me
SNSD - Gee
Super Junior - Sorry Sorry
Coldplay - Viva La Vida
Jason Mraz & Colbie Calliat - Lucky
Tangga - Terbaik Untukmu
Tangga - Kesempatan Kedua
Joey Mcintyre - Stay The Same
Kavana - Will You Wait For Me (miss you dad...)
Yui - Goodbye Days
Yellowcard - Only One
Base Jam - Bukan Pujangga
Vierra - Bersamamu
Sherina - Cinta Pertama dan Terakhir
BoA - No 1

15th November 2009

Went for Church Choir with St. Sabas Choir

Pembukaan: PS. 333: Sungguhlah Indah RumahMu
Ordinarium: Misa Kita II
Persembahan: PS. 377: Kami Hunjukkan Kami Sembahkan
Bapa Kami: (arr. L. Putut)
Komuni: Dalam Yesus
Penutup: PS. 692: Yesus Mengutus Muridnya

Then goes for Rina's farewell

Kak Rina (Embun Pagi) (by: Lyant Lay)
Selalu Kurindukan (by: Lyant Lay)

Then goes for Windy's Brother Wedding Rehearsal

The Wedding
Kasih (arr: L. Putut)
Berkatilah
Namaku Disebut

Humm... dunno what to say first... ehuehue.. actually this isn't my first blog... but it's the first one here... =p
Currently study for tomorow exam (yes... it's the last one... thank goodness)... but dunno... don't seem to gonna find the mood for it...
Duh... this post is so rubbish... just trying this time... just see if there's more =d